If you follow me on Instagram, you may have already read about my word of the year, and the actions I plan to take to keep it in focus.
I’ve chosen my word for the year – and it’s ME. ⠀
I hesitated when it so quickly and easily popped into my mind as my word; that feeling like it might be too selfish to put out there. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
But the fact is, it’s the best word for 2020. ⠀⠀
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I had an amazing 2019. I grew my business, we had many lovely adventures as a family, I read, I was content, over the moon happy at times really. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
And yet, 2019 had a shadow, or maybe it was just a caution looming. That I could be doing better, specifically, when it came to taking care of myself. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
If you know me, you know I have gotten quite good at boundaries, saying no, spending time on the couch with a book, making time for family and so on. But there’s more to self-care than that. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I need to move my body more, be kinder to myself. And my mental health has to be prioritized
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This year I gave too much power and mental space and decision making ownership to too many outside sources. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I let spaces like social media try to define my worth (it’s a catch 22 when my job is to be on social and care about performance, and yet, try to separate a post that doesn’t perform well with me doing poorly. It’s hard!) ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I aimed to please. I tried to be compliant, conciliatory when I should have spoken up. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Nothing felt good enough.
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At times,I felt a part of me slip away. ⠀⠀⠀⠀
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This holiday break I wasn’t sleeping well and it felt like every stress point and weight ever came down on me. No more.
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So in 2020, I am focusing on Me. ⠀⠀
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I turn 40 this year, and so it’s a good time to regroup who I am and what brings me joy, and to continue to focus on happiness and heart.
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It doesn’t change much really, I still have big plans for my work (and I’m excited to help more people with their content messaging!) and my family time was never in jeopardy. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
But I’m more aware. More eager to separate from what doesn’t bring me joy and return to what fuels me.
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2020 is going to be a great year, I can feel it!
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I hope it is for you too xo
Have you chosen a word of the year?
